Nothing exciting happened today.

I am not feeling to well.
It is also dreary and rainy outside.
It is supposed to be nice next week though.
Just in time for my birthday!

Which I have nothing planned for.

I walked my dog after school.
Before school, I saw the guy I like.
Twice.

One was in the hall and he said Hi.
I said Hi back :)

The other time was in the cafeteria.
He didn't see me, I don't think.

My friend was with me and kept saying,
"so are you going to go talk to him?"
Which would be okay if:
1. our cafeteria didn't echo
2. she had whispered
3. she wasn't the loudest friend I have

So that was awkward for me
yeah.

And I am 90% sure I failed an in-class essay today.
To put it briefly:
I only wrote the introduction and the first body paragraph.
Oops.
There goes my history grade.
I plan to talk to my teacher tomorrow about extra credit.

After I make up a vocabulary quiz in English.
And before I go see my chemistry teacher about making up a major test that I was sick for.
And that I don't know any of the information for.

I probably won't get to it all.

I am so stupid for leaving it for one day.
And tomorrow is the day I usually see the guy I like after classes.
I guess I will have to wait until next week :(

I realized something today.
I have certain things that I wanted to do before my birthday.
I have a bizarre feeling I won't do all of them.
But I added one.

Unconsciously.
It isn't a conscious list, just things that I know I want to do deep down.

The one I added?
Tell the guy that I like him.
Will I do it?
Probably not.
Why?
It is me.

My friends would tell me to go for it.
I have no clue why.
But I know they would.

They already told me to go up to him and kiss him.
I just don't get that.
I am just becoming friends with him.

What if I tell him and he doesn't like me back
and then he thinks it is awkward between us?

I don't want to lose him as a friend.

I would be fine with rejection, I can still be friends.
For some reason, the guy is always awkward though.

I am not that much of a freak that I don't get over crushes.
But there is always this rush that I get from talking to them.
And the rush from telling them that I like them?
Well, it makes my legs shake and my stomach to twist.
But I know it makes me stronger in the long run.

What is the worst that could happen?
"I like you"
"Me too, you are a nice person"
"No, as in I like you like you"
"Oh, well that is great and all but, uh, I gotta go"
//"Oh, well that is great and all but, uh, I don't feel the same way"
"Oh okay"

Boohoo?
I mean, it has happened before.
But I have only stayed friends with one of them.
*cough*

Not that it has happened that many times.
Laugh out loud..
I make it sound like I have done this dozens of times.

Well, this post has been long enough and touched on enough topics.

It is supposed to rain again tomorrow, I believe.

Keep Floatin'