I can't believe I am this paranoid

I am becoming more mentally insane than before.

I didn't know that was possible, but it seems to be so.

My friend is also becoming friends with the guy I like.
That isn't a problem with me.
Or at least wasn't.
It isn't that I don't want her to be friends with him.

Just as a paranoid teenage girl with the stalking abilities that Facebook allows...
He responds to her messages right away and tries to respond to what she says after she says stuff.
And I will say something to him and he will take forever to respond and it will be vague and not anything definite.

Basically, I am jealous.

She gets to see him all the time.
She sees him in the halls at school.
On her walk home on Thursdays.
And at random times.

And this guy is just plain confusing.
He is nice to people in general, so I can't tell when/if he is being nice nice.
Yes, that actually makes sense in my head.

I always act like an idiot around him too.
And I think of things to say after he walks away.
I also say things I regret.
I don't have an example but I cringe in my head when I talk to him.
A lot.

I don't talk to him a lot, but I cringe a lot.

This is too complicated for my mind to compute.
Or put down all my thoughts.
I just needed to rant to somebody.
This is the best I have for ranting.

If I rant to a friend all hell could break loose.

I think I will tell her what I think.
We are reallyyyyy close friends.
Talk to each other on a daily basis.
Know a lot about each other.

I'll talk to her about my paranoia.
She will deny everything, make me more paranoid.
The usual.

While I keep freaking out about this and probably lose sleep,

Keep Floatin'