I am no longer a chicken!

I told him how I feel.
...Really?, Did you really?
Yes, actually, thanks for believing me.

I set up to hang with him after school.
We decided to go to the swings before the buses came.
We sat for a good half hour before I even brought anything about it up.
Then I told him about that list of goals.
But not randomly, the conversation flowed.
Anyway... I ended up telling him that one of the things on the list was
to tell the guy that I like that I like him.
In response, he says, "Who is it?"
So I say, "It is a really nice guy who goes to this school..."
"Is it me?"
I know!
At that moment, I was thinking...
"this is either going to go really well or horribly"
I say "Maybe.... yes"
And then there was just silence.
*cricket cricket*
In the end what he basically ended up saying was that
he wanted to "get to know me better" and
"sorry I can't give you a more definite answer about how I feel"
Which sucks... but ISN'T a "I don't like you"
It is more of a "I want to get to know you better"
Then we talked about some stuff...
From here my memory gets foggy.
Yeah, "foggy".

Either way, we walked to the buses together and parted ways.
He has his running thing after school and I get picked up.
So, I can check "tell boy that I like him" off of my mental list.
Unfortunately not "have boyfriend".
Sigh.

I'm kind of sad.
But I don't know why.
I guess because he was obviously trying to be nice.
And doesn't like me.
But its okay.
It is just saddening.
I'll be over it soon enough.

I have plans to hang with him tomorrow morning again.
I'm good with being friends.
Friends is better than never talking.

I don't know what the weather is supposed to be like tomorrow.
I don't plan on finding out.

On the bright side, I finally told him.

Keep Floatin'