The rain dance worked!

Today is so nice outside.
Breezy, but sunny.

Ahh.
Walking my dog, was so peaceful.
I did not get to go to the gym however.
Too much work today.
Boo.

Okay, I can't hold it in anymore, I have drama.
I don't know if I mentioned this in my last post but yesterday I was über peeved.
I was so pissed off about something and I didn't tell anyone what because I don't want them to be like "it isn't that big of a deal"
to me, it is a big deal so I care.

What it is is that my math teacher likes to tease me because he knows my family because he had my brother, yadda yadda...
He was making fun of something about my family that has to do with my dog.
I used to have 2 dogs.
We rescued both of them, but found it too difficult to manage 2 dogs at one time.
They were yellow labrador of 5 and 7 months.
Almost full grown... huge.

We came across somebody who was willing to take in one of our dogs and decided to take them up on their offer.
She now lives down the street in a home much wealthier than ours getting the best treatment ever.
Better than what we could have done.
We still have one dog.
She is the joy of our lives.
We take care of her and love her and exercise her and feed her, etc.
All the stuff needed.

Now, my math teacher knows about the fact that we used to have 2 dogs and had to give one up.
He was making up how we gave her away though and it was just rude how he was doing it.
He could tell he was upsetting me and kept going.
Yes, in front of the class.
I am used to him teasing me, but I usually joke around with him.
Not this time.
I was about to start crying because giving up my dog was very difficult for me to do.
I still love her, but I know she is better off with her new family.

I was so upset with what my teacher did that I left class.
I just got up and walked out.
I took my stuff and left.

I was fretting about going to class all day.
I don't want to see him.
He is a jerk.
I still don't forgive him for what he did because he literally said,
"Oh see, now I am upsetting her"
and continued.

So what happens today?
He comes up to me during class when we are all doing separate work and tries to apologize.
-Why don't you forgive him then, dummy?-
Why don't I forgive him?
Because the jerk had a huge grin across his face the whole time.

He was saying stuff along the lines of
"What I said was wrong and I'm sorry"

Well F*CK YOU!
Don't go f*cking smiling at me as you "apologize"
So what do I say in response?
"Whatever."
In a cold, pissed off voice that was also a bit like "I don't ever want to talk to you again"
And he starts to try to be nice and say it isn't whatever but i just said it is and i looked him in the eyes for a split second.
He knew from that second to back the f*ck off.

I did my work.
Took notes.
Did a little more work.
I left early again.

I just can't get over that he would do that.
What he said was so bad that I just can't forgive him.
Not yet anyway.
I don't learn anything in the class.
It isn't like being mad at him affects him.
I just hate my days with the thought of what he said lurking in the back of my mind.

The fact that he would say that.
It just tears me apart.

If you want to know what he said so badly, hunt him down and ask him.
If it matters that much.
What could possibly upset me so much?

Well it doesn't seem like a big deal, what he said, but it was a punch in the gut that I wish i could return where the sun don't shine.

As I am trying to remain peaceful, I am torn down.
What's new?

Keep Floatin' -- that is all I am trying to do, I hope you can do the same