Once again, I have bad news.
I figured I would start out with bad news in order to get it over with...
I will not be able to post on Monday either.
Again, out of my control.
I have tons of work to catch up on.
These few weeks are going to be difficult.
For school and blogging!
I have to go catch up on mounds of work.
Rain Day #3
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Wednesday, March 31, 2010
Monday, March 29, 2010
That homework took a long time!
For one subject, that took forever!
This is going to be a really lame post.
I am going to help cook dinner.
And probably play with my dog.
And do the rest of my work that I can.
Hopefully I will be back Wednesday, but if not
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This is going to be a really lame post.
I am going to help cook dinner.
And probably play with my dog.
And do the rest of my work that I can.
Hopefully I will be back Wednesday, but if not
Keep Floatin'
Tomorrow shall be my downfall.
I wish I was able to post tomorrow but I know that I am unable to do so.
Unfortunately, it is beyond my control.
On a lighter note, I am hungry.
That was a horrible transition, I must say.
I also must go do my spanish homework.
Sorry for the short post, especially considering i won't be posting tomorrow.
Maybe I will make another quick post after my spanish homework.
We'll see.
Rain Downpour Day #1
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Unfortunately, it is beyond my control.
On a lighter note, I am hungry.
That was a horrible transition, I must say.
I also must go do my spanish homework.
Sorry for the short post, especially considering i won't be posting tomorrow.
Maybe I will make another quick post after my spanish homework.
We'll see.
Rain Downpour Day #1
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Sunday, March 28, 2010
I could have posted at 1am.
I was up at 1am.
I am so tired.
I woke up at 8:29am exactly.
Not enough sleep.
Especially considering I have a paper to write and I am going out later.
I would have preferred 10am.
Whatever.
I have to do it sometime, I guess.
Later tonight I am going out with friends.
The plans for this got so messed up because of one person
I put my foot down because she was trying to change our plans.
We are hanging out with a friend who switched schools and we haven't seen in a year.
We have had this day penciled into our schedules for 3 weeks.
It isn't like we did not expect to hang out today.
The only thing that wasn't definite was time and place.
Which, I know, is kind of a big deal.
But we were working it out starting a week ago.
I said sometime in the afternoon, preferably around 1pm.
Nobody says anything otherwise
we move on to the fact that only two people have rides
myself and the person who switched schools
at this point, we have decided location and time (mall at 1pm)
then I don't check the message feed for one day, come back and see that they have changed everything
location - changed
time - changed
people going - changed
so what do I do?
I put my foot down.
the only reason that location changed was because people didn't have rides.
I already had offered them rides.
I re-offered.
The reason the people going changed was the same reason the time was changed and then changed back:
certain people made LUNCH plans!
I mean WTF.
who does that?!
we know that we are going to hang out today
it is the only day that all of us can get together
and they made LUNCH PLANS?!
i know it isn't that big of a deal but it isn't like our group is that big
they were trying to change the whole entire day so it works for them and they didn't care about anyone else's day
so what do I do again?
I put my foot down.
Nobody else was stepping in, they were thinking what I was thinking and what nobody had the guts to say.
I clearly said when and where we were going and that they could join us when they are finished with lunch.
They said (paraphrasing) "but I don't have a ride"
So I said (paraphrasing) >insert nothing here<
Ha!
At this point, I know that everyone else in the chat feed is sitting there watching what we are saying so thankfully...
...the person from the other school decides to interject at this point!
he says (again, paraphrasing) "i am going to miss you and hopefully we will all hang out together another time"
and some more, but basically saying:
>bitch, please! don't change out plans because you can't make it. everyone else can't just change their plans because of you
we can hang out another time, why the f*ck did you make lunch plans anyway?<
Laugh my bootay off.
^_^
That is my rant for the day.
Let's hope later goes well.
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I am so tired.
I woke up at 8:29am exactly.
Not enough sleep.
Especially considering I have a paper to write and I am going out later.
I would have preferred 10am.
Whatever.
I have to do it sometime, I guess.
Later tonight I am going out with friends.
The plans for this got so messed up because of one person
I put my foot down because she was trying to change our plans.
We are hanging out with a friend who switched schools and we haven't seen in a year.
We have had this day penciled into our schedules for 3 weeks.
It isn't like we did not expect to hang out today.
The only thing that wasn't definite was time and place.
Which, I know, is kind of a big deal.
But we were working it out starting a week ago.
I said sometime in the afternoon, preferably around 1pm.
Nobody says anything otherwise
we move on to the fact that only two people have rides
myself and the person who switched schools
at this point, we have decided location and time (mall at 1pm)
then I don't check the message feed for one day, come back and see that they have changed everything
location - changed
time - changed
people going - changed
so what do I do?
I put my foot down.
the only reason that location changed was because people didn't have rides.
I already had offered them rides.
I re-offered.
The reason the people going changed was the same reason the time was changed and then changed back:
certain people made LUNCH plans!
I mean WTF.
who does that?!
we know that we are going to hang out today
it is the only day that all of us can get together
and they made LUNCH PLANS?!
i know it isn't that big of a deal but it isn't like our group is that big
they were trying to change the whole entire day so it works for them and they didn't care about anyone else's day
so what do I do again?
I put my foot down.
Nobody else was stepping in, they were thinking what I was thinking and what nobody had the guts to say.
I clearly said when and where we were going and that they could join us when they are finished with lunch.
They said (paraphrasing) "but I don't have a ride"
So I said (paraphrasing) >insert nothing here<
Ha!
At this point, I know that everyone else in the chat feed is sitting there watching what we are saying so thankfully...
...the person from the other school decides to interject at this point!
he says (again, paraphrasing) "i am going to miss you and hopefully we will all hang out together another time"
and some more, but basically saying:
>bitch, please! don't change out plans because you can't make it. everyone else can't just change their plans because of you
we can hang out another time, why the f*ck did you make lunch plans anyway?<
Laugh my bootay off.
^_^
That is my rant for the day.
Let's hope later goes well.
Keep Floatin'
Saturday, March 27, 2010
Still a child at heart.
I am watching the KCAs.
Yeah yeahh.
Whoot.
Also, on a completely different topic:
my friend told the guy she likes that she likes him
confusing and brave at the same time
brave of her
confusing on his part
he said:(paraphrasing)
"i like you too but i'm not ready for a relationship right now"
i don't know what to think of that.
i mean they go to different schools so maybe he doesnt want to date her because of that...?
maybe he was just letting her down nicely
he sent a really long, nice message
and being one of her closest friends, she showed it to me
laugh out loud.
this has been bothering me the whole time:
i have, for the most part, ignored the shift button and not capitalized anything
which bothers me
but i am not going to go back and change it
and i don't really want to start now
i feel like being slightly lazy
--transition--
i got to ride my bike yesterday!
just for a few minutes...
...in my backyard...
but it is still more than nothing!
--this time, a witty transition--
i am hanging out with friends tomorrow
not sure exactly what or where
but because of this, i have to do my homework now
i have studying, a paper, and some reading, on top of normal homework.
boo.
sorry about my grammar :/
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Yeah yeahh.
Whoot.
Also, on a completely different topic:
my friend told the guy she likes that she likes him
confusing and brave at the same time
brave of her
confusing on his part
he said:(paraphrasing)
"i like you too but i'm not ready for a relationship right now"
i don't know what to think of that.
i mean they go to different schools so maybe he doesnt want to date her because of that...?
maybe he was just letting her down nicely
he sent a really long, nice message
and being one of her closest friends, she showed it to me
laugh out loud.
this has been bothering me the whole time:
i have, for the most part, ignored the shift button and not capitalized anything
which bothers me
but i am not going to go back and change it
and i don't really want to start now
i feel like being slightly lazy
--transition--
i got to ride my bike yesterday!
just for a few minutes...
...in my backyard...
but it is still more than nothing!
--this time, a witty transition--
i am hanging out with friends tomorrow
not sure exactly what or where
but because of this, i have to do my homework now
i have studying, a paper, and some reading, on top of normal homework.
boo.
sorry about my grammar :/
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Friday, March 26, 2010
Sad news.
I guess I will just get straight to it.
My teacher's niece was hit by a car.
She didn't make it.
:(
We made her a card for when she gets back.
We didn't even hear it from her.
We heard it from the other class of our year that she teaches.
Sorry to start off on a sad note.
I guess not much happened today.
I seem to be getting closer to the guy I like as a friend.
It makes me happy.
I want to pump up my bike tires and ride around.
It has been chilly ever since I first said that.
Maybe by repeating it the weather might change...?
Doubt it with my luck.
I gotta go do some stuff that I have put off till now.
:(
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My teacher's niece was hit by a car.
She didn't make it.
:(
We made her a card for when she gets back.
We didn't even hear it from her.
We heard it from the other class of our year that she teaches.
Sorry to start off on a sad note.
I guess not much happened today.
I seem to be getting closer to the guy I like as a friend.
It makes me happy.
I want to pump up my bike tires and ride around.
It has been chilly ever since I first said that.
Maybe by repeating it the weather might change...?
Doubt it with my luck.
I gotta go do some stuff that I have put off till now.
:(
Keep Floatin'
Thursday, March 25, 2010
Good workout today :)
Last day of standardized testing for the month!
I finished after roughly 15 minutes and sat there for roughly 1 and a half hours.
Joy.
After school, I walked my dog.
Then I went to the gym to work out.
I have a couple more hours of Band of Brothers for tonight because I must finish it for tomorrow.
No Bones tonight, but it comes back soon!
And Glee comes back on soon.
Yes, I watch both of those shows.
And House, Psych, White Collar, etc.
I just got hooked on them.
Now it is time for some bad news.
Really, really bad news.
My daily streak (minus 1 day :P)
shall shortly end
Just for 2 days.
Maybe one.
Because on Tuesday and Wednesday of next week there is a possibility that I will not be able to reach a computer.
I can almost guarantee Tuesday shall be missed, but Wednesday I am not sure about.
I shall not apologize for this missed day/these missed days because it is beyond my control.
But I am still sorry XP
Until tomorrow,
Keep Floatin'
I finished after roughly 15 minutes and sat there for roughly 1 and a half hours.
Joy.
After school, I walked my dog.
Then I went to the gym to work out.
I have a couple more hours of Band of Brothers for tonight because I must finish it for tomorrow.
No Bones tonight, but it comes back soon!
And Glee comes back on soon.
Yes, I watch both of those shows.
And House, Psych, White Collar, etc.
I just got hooked on them.
Now it is time for some bad news.
Really, really bad news.
My daily streak (minus 1 day :P)
shall shortly end
Just for 2 days.
Maybe one.
Because on Tuesday and Wednesday of next week there is a possibility that I will not be able to reach a computer.
I can almost guarantee Tuesday shall be missed, but Wednesday I am not sure about.
I shall not apologize for this missed day/these missed days because it is beyond my control.
But I am still sorry XP
Until tomorrow,
Keep Floatin'
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
I am going on my eighth hour
I have only a few more hours to go of Band of Brothers.
It is a really good miniseries.
I like the Pacific more, though.
Not that I tend to like history shows at all, but it is assigned homework.
Well, the Band of Brothers hour after hour is extra credit for me because I am not doing so well in history.
Sucks for me.
Want to know what else sucks for me?
I am allergic to red apples.
(just one of my many bizarre fruit allergies)
((not bizarre fruits but the allergies are bizarre -- never mind))
How does this suck for me?
Besides the fact that red apples are delicious (no pun intended)...
I had two today accidentally.
It isn't a deadly so it isn't too big of a deal.
No shots or emergency care needed.
I just get reallyyyyyyy sick later.
Like now.
Yeah.
I feel really sick.
I felt sick at the end of school too because I had it earlier in the day.
Yeah.
Not much else to say.
Keep Floatin'
It is a really good miniseries.
I like the Pacific more, though.
Not that I tend to like history shows at all, but it is assigned homework.
Well, the Band of Brothers hour after hour is extra credit for me because I am not doing so well in history.
Sucks for me.
Want to know what else sucks for me?
I am allergic to red apples.
(just one of my many bizarre fruit allergies)
((not bizarre fruits but the allergies are bizarre -- never mind))
How does this suck for me?
Besides the fact that red apples are delicious (no pun intended)...
I had two today accidentally.
It isn't a deadly so it isn't too big of a deal.
No shots or emergency care needed.
I just get reallyyyyyyy sick later.
Like now.
Yeah.
I feel really sick.
I felt sick at the end of school too because I had it earlier in the day.
Yeah.
Not much else to say.
Keep Floatin'
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
Standardized testing FTW
The testing didn't go too poorly.
It was essay writing day.
Boo.
I wrote about 1984 by George Orwell.
Then I had music tech -- making bossa novas
And history -- BOREDOM.
After, I went to walk my dog.
It is raining.
I am soaking wet.
FML.
I have to get to work before my parents get suspicious of my excessive typing.
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It was essay writing day.
Boo.
I wrote about 1984 by George Orwell.
Then I had music tech -- making bossa novas
And history -- BOREDOM.
After, I went to walk my dog.
It is raining.
I am soaking wet.
FML.
I have to get to work before my parents get suspicious of my excessive typing.
Keep Floatin'
Monday, March 22, 2010
Over 3 hours of explosions. I am done for now.
I am about to fail History.
If I do poorly on one more thing I might fail.
I am getting horrible scores on tests.
My teacher gave me extra credit, though.
She told me to watch Band of Brothers (war show on HBO).
I have watched 3 episodes in the past 4 hours.
1st episode- 70 something mins
2nd - 55ish mins
3rd - 66 mins.
So over 3 hours of explosions.
My head hurts.
I have to go walk my dog.
I wanted to ride my bike today, but it rained all day.
Boo.
Tomorrow begins my state's standardized testing for english in my grade.
Headaches for 3 days.
Yay.
I mean, it is better than class, but I have to return to class once I am done with the test.
I know, right?
Off to walk my dog!
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If I do poorly on one more thing I might fail.
I am getting horrible scores on tests.
My teacher gave me extra credit, though.
She told me to watch Band of Brothers (war show on HBO).
I have watched 3 episodes in the past 4 hours.
1st episode- 70 something mins
2nd - 55ish mins
3rd - 66 mins.
So over 3 hours of explosions.
My head hurts.
I have to go walk my dog.
I wanted to ride my bike today, but it rained all day.
Boo.
Tomorrow begins my state's standardized testing for english in my grade.
Headaches for 3 days.
Yay.
I mean, it is better than class, but I have to return to class once I am done with the test.
I know, right?
Off to walk my dog!
Keep Floatin'
Sunday, March 21, 2010
Bad Decision...
I didn't start my homework until today.
Silly, I know.
I have Spanish homework done.
I have all of my Chemistry done except for studying.
I have every other subject to go!
Urgh.
I also have to watch the second episode of "The Pacific" tonight at 9 on HBO.
I liked the first episode and hope that this one is just as good.
It reenacts WWII-ish and follows the path of some of the soldiers.
The first episode was about them shipping out to Guadalcanal and fighting the Japanese.
I recommend watching it even though I don't really like history.
:D
Check it out.
I have to go.
My parents are suspicious of my excessive typing.
Uh ohs.
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Silly, I know.
I have Spanish homework done.
I have all of my Chemistry done except for studying.
I have every other subject to go!
Urgh.
I also have to watch the second episode of "The Pacific" tonight at 9 on HBO.
I liked the first episode and hope that this one is just as good.
It reenacts WWII-ish and follows the path of some of the soldiers.
The first episode was about them shipping out to Guadalcanal and fighting the Japanese.
I recommend watching it even though I don't really like history.
:D
Check it out.
I have to go.
My parents are suspicious of my excessive typing.
Uh ohs.
Keep Floatin'
Saturday, March 20, 2010
It smells like smoke.
Just a thought.
Someone just blew out a lit candle.
'Tis all.
I want to have a picnic at school.
My plans have begun.
I have a cool picnic basket.
It has a radio in it.
And speakers.
Obviously.
How else would one hear it?
Durr.
What would I pack though?
Need ideas.
*thinking*
Oh no!
Now the smoke is coming out of my head from thinking too hard.
I guess I should give up on the whole thinking thing.
It doesn't work out too well for me.
Nothing in specific that I am thinking of, but in general thinking doesn't work out for me.
Even on tests.
I took a test on Friday, as you very well know.
It was all multiple choice.
Fail.
Epic, epic fail.
I hope I pass.
At least.
I have work to do.
Prep for test.
Normal homework.
Work I have put off till now.
Keep Floatin'
Someone just blew out a lit candle.
'Tis all.
I want to have a picnic at school.
My plans have begun.
I have a cool picnic basket.
It has a radio in it.
And speakers.
Obviously.
How else would one hear it?
Durr.
What would I pack though?
Need ideas.
*thinking*
Oh no!
Now the smoke is coming out of my head from thinking too hard.
I guess I should give up on the whole thinking thing.
It doesn't work out too well for me.
Nothing in specific that I am thinking of, but in general thinking doesn't work out for me.
Even on tests.
I took a test on Friday, as you very well know.
It was all multiple choice.
Fail.
Epic, epic fail.
I hope I pass.
At least.
I have work to do.
Prep for test.
Normal homework.
Work I have put off till now.
Keep Floatin'
Friday, March 19, 2010
Two tests. One paper. Two days.
I took two tests in the past two days.
And I had a paper due.
In case the title didn't give it away.
I did not enjoy writing that paper.
I think it came out well.
I have another test on Monday.
Yay!
I don't have much to say.
I want to start riding my bike soon.
I just have to pump up the tires.
And have a place to go.
I have been walking my dog everyday.
It is fun and relieving.
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And I had a paper due.
In case the title didn't give it away.
I did not enjoy writing that paper.
I think it came out well.
I have another test on Monday.
Yay!
I don't have much to say.
I want to start riding my bike soon.
I just have to pump up the tires.
And have a place to go.
I have been walking my dog everyday.
It is fun and relieving.
Keep Floatin'
Thursday, March 18, 2010
Short time.
I don't have much time.
Today was pretty average / sucky.
I had a bad day at school altogether.
Nothing special.
Nothing good.
Probably failed that test.
Got hurt.
After school I took a walk.
Lifted weights.
The usual.
Then I got home really late.
Didn't start my homework right away.
Now I must start it.
I have a test and paper to be ready for tomorrow.
Must write that paper.
I lost the book that I need for it.
Someone lent me a copy for tonight.
Dang.
I typed this all in about a minute in a half.
I have to go because I have SO much to do its crazy.
Keep Floatin'
Today was pretty average / sucky.
I had a bad day at school altogether.
Nothing special.
Nothing good.
Probably failed that test.
Got hurt.
After school I took a walk.
Lifted weights.
The usual.
Then I got home really late.
Didn't start my homework right away.
Now I must start it.
I have a test and paper to be ready for tomorrow.
Must write that paper.
I lost the book that I need for it.
Someone lent me a copy for tonight.
Dang.
I typed this all in about a minute in a half.
I have to go because I have SO much to do its crazy.
Keep Floatin'
Wednesday, March 17, 2010
Dance Dance *Record*
Nothing really happened today.
I had some free time and spent it outside.
During that time I was with a friend.
I started dancing to the music on my iPod.
There were other people around, but I didn't care.
I am a horrible dancer.
Actually.
I wish exaggeration was being used to describe my dancing, but it is not.
Back to the point:
As I am dancing
Getting my groove on
I look over to those people because I notice them looking at me
They have been f*cking video taping me the whole time!
I just stopped and walked over to my friend and sat down and was embarrassed.
They didn't know that I knew.
Then they started showing their friends that came up to them the video.
I didn't know what to do.
I just started to leave and one of them that came up to the group said,
"Do you dance?"
and i said,
"Do I dance? Yes. Do I dance well? No."
And left without hearing another word.
That was my main exciting thing that happened today.
Keep Floatin'
I had some free time and spent it outside.
During that time I was with a friend.
I started dancing to the music on my iPod.
There were other people around, but I didn't care.
I am a horrible dancer.
Actually.
I wish exaggeration was being used to describe my dancing, but it is not.
Back to the point:
As I am dancing
Getting my groove on
I look over to those people because I notice them looking at me
They have been f*cking video taping me the whole time!
I just stopped and walked over to my friend and sat down and was embarrassed.
They didn't know that I knew.
Then they started showing their friends that came up to them the video.
I didn't know what to do.
I just started to leave and one of them that came up to the group said,
"Do you dance?"
and i said,
"Do I dance? Yes. Do I dance well? No."
And left without hearing another word.
That was my main exciting thing that happened today.
Keep Floatin'
Tuesday, March 16, 2010
The rain dance worked!
Today is so nice outside.
Breezy, but sunny.
Ahh.
Walking my dog, was so peaceful.
I did not get to go to the gym however.
Too much work today.
Boo.
Okay, I can't hold it in anymore, I have drama.
I don't know if I mentioned this in my last post but yesterday I was über peeved.
I was so pissed off about something and I didn't tell anyone what because I don't want them to be like "it isn't that big of a deal"
to me, it is a big deal so I care.
What it is is that my math teacher likes to tease me because he knows my family because he had my brother, yadda yadda...
He was making fun of something about my family that has to do with my dog.
I used to have 2 dogs.
We rescued both of them, but found it too difficult to manage 2 dogs at one time.
They were yellow labrador of 5 and 7 months.
Almost full grown... huge.
We came across somebody who was willing to take in one of our dogs and decided to take them up on their offer.
She now lives down the street in a home much wealthier than ours getting the best treatment ever.
Better than what we could have done.
We still have one dog.
She is the joy of our lives.
We take care of her and love her and exercise her and feed her, etc.
All the stuff needed.
Now, my math teacher knows about the fact that we used to have 2 dogs and had to give one up.
He was making up how we gave her away though and it was just rude how he was doing it.
He could tell he was upsetting me and kept going.
Yes, in front of the class.
I am used to him teasing me, but I usually joke around with him.
Not this time.
I was about to start crying because giving up my dog was very difficult for me to do.
I still love her, but I know she is better off with her new family.
I was so upset with what my teacher did that I left class.
I just got up and walked out.
I took my stuff and left.
I was fretting about going to class all day.
I don't want to see him.
He is a jerk.
I still don't forgive him for what he did because he literally said,
"Oh see, now I am upsetting her"
and continued.
So what happens today?
He comes up to me during class when we are all doing separate work and tries to apologize.
-Why don't you forgive him then, dummy?-
Why don't I forgive him?
Because the jerk had a huge grin across his face the whole time.
He was saying stuff along the lines of
"What I said was wrong and I'm sorry"
Well F*CK YOU!
Don't go f*cking smiling at me as you "apologize"
So what do I say in response?
"Whatever."
In a cold, pissed off voice that was also a bit like "I don't ever want to talk to you again"
And he starts to try to be nice and say it isn't whatever but i just said it is and i looked him in the eyes for a split second.
He knew from that second to back the f*ck off.
I did my work.
Took notes.
Did a little more work.
I left early again.
I just can't get over that he would do that.
What he said was so bad that I just can't forgive him.
Not yet anyway.
I don't learn anything in the class.
It isn't like being mad at him affects him.
I just hate my days with the thought of what he said lurking in the back of my mind.
The fact that he would say that.
It just tears me apart.
If you want to know what he said so badly, hunt him down and ask him.
If it matters that much.
What could possibly upset me so much?
Well it doesn't seem like a big deal, what he said, but it was a punch in the gut that I wish i could return where the sun don't shine.
As I am trying to remain peaceful, I am torn down.
What's new?
Keep Floatin' -- that is all I am trying to do, I hope you can do the same
Breezy, but sunny.
Ahh.
Walking my dog, was so peaceful.
I did not get to go to the gym however.
Too much work today.
Boo.
Okay, I can't hold it in anymore, I have drama.
I don't know if I mentioned this in my last post but yesterday I was über peeved.
I was so pissed off about something and I didn't tell anyone what because I don't want them to be like "it isn't that big of a deal"
to me, it is a big deal so I care.
What it is is that my math teacher likes to tease me because he knows my family because he had my brother, yadda yadda...
He was making fun of something about my family that has to do with my dog.
I used to have 2 dogs.
We rescued both of them, but found it too difficult to manage 2 dogs at one time.
They were yellow labrador of 5 and 7 months.
Almost full grown... huge.
We came across somebody who was willing to take in one of our dogs and decided to take them up on their offer.
She now lives down the street in a home much wealthier than ours getting the best treatment ever.
Better than what we could have done.
We still have one dog.
She is the joy of our lives.
We take care of her and love her and exercise her and feed her, etc.
All the stuff needed.
Now, my math teacher knows about the fact that we used to have 2 dogs and had to give one up.
He was making up how we gave her away though and it was just rude how he was doing it.
He could tell he was upsetting me and kept going.
Yes, in front of the class.
I am used to him teasing me, but I usually joke around with him.
Not this time.
I was about to start crying because giving up my dog was very difficult for me to do.
I still love her, but I know she is better off with her new family.
I was so upset with what my teacher did that I left class.
I just got up and walked out.
I took my stuff and left.
I was fretting about going to class all day.
I don't want to see him.
He is a jerk.
I still don't forgive him for what he did because he literally said,
"Oh see, now I am upsetting her"
and continued.
So what happens today?
He comes up to me during class when we are all doing separate work and tries to apologize.
-Why don't you forgive him then, dummy?-
Why don't I forgive him?
Because the jerk had a huge grin across his face the whole time.
He was saying stuff along the lines of
"What I said was wrong and I'm sorry"
Well F*CK YOU!
Don't go f*cking smiling at me as you "apologize"
So what do I say in response?
"Whatever."
In a cold, pissed off voice that was also a bit like "I don't ever want to talk to you again"
And he starts to try to be nice and say it isn't whatever but i just said it is and i looked him in the eyes for a split second.
He knew from that second to back the f*ck off.
I did my work.
Took notes.
Did a little more work.
I left early again.
I just can't get over that he would do that.
What he said was so bad that I just can't forgive him.
Not yet anyway.
I don't learn anything in the class.
It isn't like being mad at him affects him.
I just hate my days with the thought of what he said lurking in the back of my mind.
The fact that he would say that.
It just tears me apart.
If you want to know what he said so badly, hunt him down and ask him.
If it matters that much.
What could possibly upset me so much?
Well it doesn't seem like a big deal, what he said, but it was a punch in the gut that I wish i could return where the sun don't shine.
As I am trying to remain peaceful, I am torn down.
What's new?
Keep Floatin' -- that is all I am trying to do, I hope you can do the same
Monday, March 15, 2010
Today sucked.
That sums up my day.
And honestly, even though I am supposed to share my deepest thoughts here because who cares, but I just don't want to.
It was a bad day.
I can go through my day, but it just isn't worth it.
I am hoping tomorrow will be better.
I don't have much to talk about because I don't want record or memory of this horrible day.
Sorry for the short post.
Maybe something more interesting will happen.
If I had more readers, maybe I would be more motivated to post more about my day.
I haven't even told my best friend what happened today.
Rain Day #4
Keep Floatin' (no pun intended with all the rain we have been getting here)
And honestly, even though I am supposed to share my deepest thoughts here because who cares, but I just don't want to.
It was a bad day.
I can go through my day, but it just isn't worth it.
I am hoping tomorrow will be better.
I don't have much to talk about because I don't want record or memory of this horrible day.
Sorry for the short post.
Maybe something more interesting will happen.
If I had more readers, maybe I would be more motivated to post more about my day.
I haven't even told my best friend what happened today.
Rain Day #4
Keep Floatin' (no pun intended with all the rain we have been getting here)
Sunday, March 14, 2010
I am so tired.
The show ended at 10:30.
It was pretty good.
I got to see my teacher have a pie thrown in his face.
Joy!
Also, at the end, one of the emcees discreetly came up to my friend and me and told us to go on stage next song
(we had been dancing the whole show)
so the song came on
nobody was on stage
we ran on stage
danced our butts off.
we started a dance party.
woot.
it was full-on body thrusting
no actual skill involved = my kind of dancing
since i havent started homework i should probably get going on that...
Keep Floatin'
It was pretty good.
I got to see my teacher have a pie thrown in his face.
Joy!
Also, at the end, one of the emcees discreetly came up to my friend and me and told us to go on stage next song
(we had been dancing the whole show)
so the song came on
nobody was on stage
we ran on stage
danced our butts off.
we started a dance party.
woot.
it was full-on body thrusting
no actual skill involved = my kind of dancing
since i havent started homework i should probably get going on that...
Keep Floatin'
Saturday, March 13, 2010
Going out tonightt
I am going to my school's faculty talent show tonight!
I would post after, but I don't know if I will be back before tomorrow because I might go out after and not go on the computer when I get back...
Excuses, excuses, i know.
I am meeting a couple of my friends there.
Maybe I will see my crushh.
Probably not though, not with my luck.
Yeah, typical teenager adding letters to the end of words for the winn.
I'll post later if I have time or am not too tired.
Keep Floatin'
I would post after, but I don't know if I will be back before tomorrow because I might go out after and not go on the computer when I get back...
Excuses, excuses, i know.
I am meeting a couple of my friends there.
Maybe I will see my crushh.
Probably not though, not with my luck.
Yeah, typical teenager adding letters to the end of words for the winn.
I'll post later if I have time or am not too tired.
Keep Floatin'
Friday, March 12, 2010
Pain in the tummeh :(
My tummy hurts.
Well, at least it did all day.
I feel a little better now that I am home.
Today was very uneventful.
I had two tests.
I got assigned to two tests and a paper.
And other various homework.
I think I am going to go play on my new guitar for a little bit.
Did I mention the new guitar?
It is a little Martin.
3/4 size.
Travel guitar FTW
I love it.
Yahh.
Keep Floatin'
Well, at least it did all day.
I feel a little better now that I am home.
Today was very uneventful.
I had two tests.
I got assigned to two tests and a paper.
And other various homework.
I think I am going to go play on my new guitar for a little bit.
Did I mention the new guitar?
It is a little Martin.
3/4 size.
Travel guitar FTW
I love it.
Yahh.
Keep Floatin'
Thursday, March 11, 2010
Now that that is over with I can move on
I told her I like him.
She was getting over him anyway.
Like she always does.
I convinced her that her ex is better for her anyway.
She agreed.
Lawl.
Also:
I made a video of myself singing and posted it online and everybody seems to love it...
It could be because of the 9 and a half minutes of bloopers but still
people said my singing is good
:D
Yesterday I had Spanish, Math, and Chinese tests.
Tomorrow I have Spanish and Chinese tests.
yayy...
On to studying...
And daydreaming about him..
Keep Floatin'
She was getting over him anyway.
Like she always does.
I convinced her that her ex is better for her anyway.
She agreed.
Lawl.
Also:
I made a video of myself singing and posted it online and everybody seems to love it...
It could be because of the 9 and a half minutes of bloopers but still
people said my singing is good
:D
Yesterday I had Spanish, Math, and Chinese tests.
Tomorrow I have Spanish and Chinese tests.
yayy...
On to studying...
And daydreaming about him..
Keep Floatin'
Wednesday, March 10, 2010
Why is it always me?
Of course.
Why?
I mean I know why..
It is because she is a slut.
Okay, that was mean..
She is my friend.
But seriously??
I guess she didn't know...
*pulls out hair*
you: "wtf is going on..?"
me: "ill tell you right now:"
my friend also likes the guy I like
the one that I didnt want to tell that I like him to because she would freak out and act all weird
f*ck.
my.
life.
this sh*t always happens to me.
i don't even want to hang out with her tomorrow now that she told me that she likes him
she probably won't stop talking about him
what am i going to do?
i was planning on telling her that i liked him tomorrow
f*ck.
f*ck.
f*ck.
im so pissed
i don't know what to do
im gunna go so i dont say anything more and regret it
Keep Floatin'
Why?
I mean I know why..
It is because she is a slut.
Okay, that was mean..
She is my friend.
But seriously??
I guess she didn't know...
*pulls out hair*
you: "wtf is going on..?"
me: "ill tell you right now:"
my friend also likes the guy I like
the one that I didnt want to tell that I like him to because she would freak out and act all weird
f*ck.
my.
life.
this sh*t always happens to me.
i don't even want to hang out with her tomorrow now that she told me that she likes him
she probably won't stop talking about him
what am i going to do?
i was planning on telling her that i liked him tomorrow
f*ck.
f*ck.
f*ck.
im so pissed
i don't know what to do
im gunna go so i dont say anything more and regret it
Keep Floatin'
Tuesday, March 9, 2010
Great day, great, great day!
It wasn't the fairy tale I wanted.
I didn't get to hang with the guy I like.
but I still had fun!
I got all my registration stuff.. here is my class list:
Honors Biology
Honors Year 4 Spanish
Honors History
Advanced Math
Solo Voice Training
Year 2 Chinese
Honors English
That's right!
I got into honors english.
I was able to before, but my teacher was being a ******.
After school, I got my guitar from my parent and took the bus with my friend.
We went to her house and hung out for about an hour and a half.
Then she had softball so we parted ways.
After hanging out, I went to walk my dog and work out.
I walked my dog like normal.
I got in the car and
HOLY SH*T A F*CKING TICK IS ON MY LEG!
No joke.
I had a tick on my leg.
I am okay, because it didn't bite me yet and I got it off.
I had to check my dog though.
Scary, scary business.
Now I am home, after a nice, long shower, I must start homework.
Oh! I almost forgot...
I saw him today.
Twice.
The first time he said hi to me in the halls.
The second time I was wandering outside and came across him.
I walked him back to his class.
He was having lunch outside so we went back inside.
He held the door for me.
Yeah.
If I don't start homework now, it will never get done.
I have too much work considering I didn't have any classes today.
Keep Floatin'
I didn't get to hang with the guy I like.
but I still had fun!
I got all my registration stuff.. here is my class list:
Honors Biology
Honors Year 4 Spanish
Honors History
Advanced Math
Solo Voice Training
Year 2 Chinese
Honors English
That's right!
I got into honors english.
I was able to before, but my teacher was being a ******.
After school, I got my guitar from my parent and took the bus with my friend.
We went to her house and hung out for about an hour and a half.
Then she had softball so we parted ways.
After hanging out, I went to walk my dog and work out.
I walked my dog like normal.
I got in the car and
HOLY SH*T A F*CKING TICK IS ON MY LEG!
No joke.
I had a tick on my leg.
I am okay, because it didn't bite me yet and I got it off.
I had to check my dog though.
Scary, scary business.
Now I am home, after a nice, long shower, I must start homework.
Oh! I almost forgot...
I saw him today.
Twice.
The first time he said hi to me in the halls.
The second time I was wandering outside and came across him.
I walked him back to his class.
He was having lunch outside so we went back inside.
He held the door for me.
Yeah.
If I don't start homework now, it will never get done.
I have too much work considering I didn't have any classes today.
Keep Floatin'
I AM NOT A FAIL.
Kind of.
I mean, enough.
He responded :)
He can't hang out for when I asked, but he said we could another time.
I asked when he is free.
Maybe something will be good in life.
My brother is home from college.
He has a girlfriend.
Ugh.
Picks up phone "Hey, sweetheart"
Me: BARF
Let's see how long we go without fighting.
It has been half a day.
*countdown commences*
Course registration is tomorrow. Well, today.
Haha. It is a little past midnight.
I should go to bed.
I had to update though.
I would have earlier, but I had homework.
He didn't wait till now to respond, but I couldn't update immediately.
Keep Floatin'
I mean, enough.
He responded :)
He can't hang out for when I asked, but he said we could another time.
I asked when he is free.
Maybe something will be good in life.
My brother is home from college.
He has a girlfriend.
Ugh.
Picks up phone "Hey, sweetheart"
Me: BARF
Let's see how long we go without fighting.
It has been half a day.
*countdown commences*
Course registration is tomorrow. Well, today.
Haha. It is a little past midnight.
I should go to bed.
I had to update though.
I would have earlier, but I had homework.
He didn't wait till now to respond, but I couldn't update immediately.
Keep Floatin'
Monday, March 8, 2010
I am an official fail.
I never learn.
I have been told countless times to not ask somebody out via the internet.
I mean, I didn't ask him out in his eyes... unless I did...
But I said it more like hang out type thing.
Either way.....
he hasn't responded.
I didn't see him in school either.
Great for me.
Maybe he will respond tonight.
I would rather hear a no then not hear anything at all.
Okay.
Those are my two cents.
Keep Floatin'
I have been told countless times to not ask somebody out via the internet.
I mean, I didn't ask him out in his eyes... unless I did...
But I said it more like hang out type thing.
Either way.....
he hasn't responded.
I didn't see him in school either.
Great for me.
Maybe he will respond tonight.
I would rather hear a no then not hear anything at all.
Okay.
Those are my two cents.
Keep Floatin'
Sunday, March 7, 2010
I DID IT!
I asked him out.
No lie.
I actually did it.
But it wasn't like asking him on a date.
I just asked him to hang out.
Ahhhhhhh!!!
I was straightforward.
But since i rarely see him, it had to be through the internet.
Which sucks.
But I did it anyway.
*Breathe*
Now that I have put off my homework until tonight, I must go.
Just updating while I am still slightly freaking about it.
Yeahh.
Keep Floatin'
No lie.
I actually did it.
But it wasn't like asking him on a date.
I just asked him to hang out.
Ahhhhhhh!!!
I was straightforward.
But since i rarely see him, it had to be through the internet.
Which sucks.
But I did it anyway.
*Breathe*
Now that I have put off my homework until tonight, I must go.
Just updating while I am still slightly freaking about it.
Yeahh.
Keep Floatin'
This urge will not win me over
I have this urge to ask my crush out.
Why do I always have this urge?
I guess its obvious but still...
And I think I have the perfect opportunity:
Tuesday is a special day at school where we don't have any real classes so I could ask him to hang out after.
Thursday is a short day and we get out early so I could ask him to hang out after school then too.
I wish I had the guts and ability.
I would just ask him to hang out.
Not go on a date or anything.
I just want to get to know him better.
When I got to get to know him the other day I really enjoyed my time with him and he is an interesting person.
Too bad my friend was there or I would have just set up to hang out with him then.
Dang friend.
I have been weighing the pros and cons.
Pros:
he says yes i get to know him better and we become good friends and we see what happens from there etc
Cons:
he says yes and it is sucky the whole time
he says no and he never wants to talk to me again
he says yes and he gets to know me and doesn't like me
now if I look at that list now, the cons obviously out weigh the pros...
but if I take a step back and think about what I want to do and wonder if the risk is worthwhile
the pro alone is worth it to me
problem #1:
i don't have classes with him
therefore, i have to ask him in the halls (where i barely see him)
problem #2:
i could ask him via the internets....
that never works if i want him to think it is anything but just friends
then again nowadays anything could mean anything on the internet
problem #3:
i still don't have the courage to ask him out or just hang out in general
i feel comfortable talking to him in general but I just don't think I could ask him out.
One of my friends thinks it would be really cool if I asked him out, even though she doesn't know who it is...
I want to tell my friends so badly
If I tell them, then next time they might find a way to give me some time with him alone
but they might also tease me and make it weird to be around him
they usually do the latter.
I am so stuck.
I need a hug.
I hate hugs actually.
I need...... something.
Keep Floatin'
Why do I always have this urge?
I guess its obvious but still...
And I think I have the perfect opportunity:
Tuesday is a special day at school where we don't have any real classes so I could ask him to hang out after.
Thursday is a short day and we get out early so I could ask him to hang out after school then too.
I wish I had the guts and ability.
I would just ask him to hang out.
Not go on a date or anything.
I just want to get to know him better.
When I got to get to know him the other day I really enjoyed my time with him and he is an interesting person.
Too bad my friend was there or I would have just set up to hang out with him then.
Dang friend.
I have been weighing the pros and cons.
Pros:
he says yes i get to know him better and we become good friends and we see what happens from there etc
Cons:
he says yes and it is sucky the whole time
he says no and he never wants to talk to me again
he says yes and he gets to know me and doesn't like me
now if I look at that list now, the cons obviously out weigh the pros...
but if I take a step back and think about what I want to do and wonder if the risk is worthwhile
the pro alone is worth it to me
problem #1:
i don't have classes with him
therefore, i have to ask him in the halls (where i barely see him)
problem #2:
i could ask him via the internets....
that never works if i want him to think it is anything but just friends
then again nowadays anything could mean anything on the internet
problem #3:
i still don't have the courage to ask him out or just hang out in general
i feel comfortable talking to him in general but I just don't think I could ask him out.
One of my friends thinks it would be really cool if I asked him out, even though she doesn't know who it is...
I want to tell my friends so badly
If I tell them, then next time they might find a way to give me some time with him alone
but they might also tease me and make it weird to be around him
they usually do the latter.
I am so stuck.
I need a hug.
I hate hugs actually.
I need...... something.
Keep Floatin'
Saturday, March 6, 2010
Shoot! I missed a day!
I felt so sick yesterday.
I didn't go on the computer.
I completely forgot about blogging.
I had to go through school.
It was TORTURE!
I still don't feel well.
I also can't stop thinking about this guy.
On top of all this I have to go out in a few minutes, cutting this post down.
But, honestly, I would rather miss one post then forget to post altogether.
The only reason I remembered right now is because I saw my blog on my bookmarks.
I am such an idiot for forgetting.
This is the first thing in a while to distract me from thinking about this guy.
It is driving me crazy!
I got to spend time with him during school the other day.
Unfortunately, my friend was with us.
Did I already talk about this?
Even if I did, I can't stop thinking about it.
Ughh.
It was so amazing though.
We got to know each other.
The bell rang, cutting us off.
Sarcastic yay here.
My friend was also annoying about it.
Nobody knows that he is the guy that I like.
Except, of course, me.
He talked about his family and I didn't get to talk much, but it was so nice.
And my friend is an attention whore around any guy.
I asked her why she gets all weird around other people but with me she is just chill and she told me she didn't know.
It drives me crazy!
But she is down-to-earth if you get to know her and that is important to me.
Back to the point:
I am hoping that I get to spend time with him again.
Just alone next time :)
That would make my day.
Just thinking about him makes my day.
I have to go now, but at least I got a word in.
Keep Floatin'
I didn't go on the computer.
I completely forgot about blogging.
I had to go through school.
It was TORTURE!
I still don't feel well.
I also can't stop thinking about this guy.
On top of all this I have to go out in a few minutes, cutting this post down.
But, honestly, I would rather miss one post then forget to post altogether.
The only reason I remembered right now is because I saw my blog on my bookmarks.
I am such an idiot for forgetting.
This is the first thing in a while to distract me from thinking about this guy.
It is driving me crazy!
I got to spend time with him during school the other day.
Unfortunately, my friend was with us.
Did I already talk about this?
Even if I did, I can't stop thinking about it.
Ughh.
It was so amazing though.
We got to know each other.
The bell rang, cutting us off.
Sarcastic yay here.
My friend was also annoying about it.
Nobody knows that he is the guy that I like.
Except, of course, me.
He talked about his family and I didn't get to talk much, but it was so nice.
And my friend is an attention whore around any guy.
I asked her why she gets all weird around other people but with me she is just chill and she told me she didn't know.
It drives me crazy!
But she is down-to-earth if you get to know her and that is important to me.
Back to the point:
I am hoping that I get to spend time with him again.
Just alone next time :)
That would make my day.
Just thinking about him makes my day.
I have to go now, but at least I got a word in.
Keep Floatin'
Thursday, March 4, 2010
I have never felt this way before
I can't stop thinking about this guy.
I spent time with him today and it just felt right.
He opened up and talked about himself and his family.
I talked about my life too.
Unfortunately, one of my friends was with us.
It would have been heaven without her.
She is too loud.
And distracting.
If anything, I would want to be friends with him.
My hand has pins and needles.
I was lying on my arm a minute ago and it went numb.
I sat up.
Now it is all pins and needles.
I have a lot of work to do and I keep getting distracted by this guy.
Just talking about him, I have butterflies in my stomach and my heart beats a little faster.
<3
Oh! American Idol results tonight!
I should probably get going...
(i just spent 10 minutes staring at the wall thinking about him so I would say I should do my homework)
Keep Floatin'
I spent time with him today and it just felt right.
He opened up and talked about himself and his family.
I talked about my life too.
Unfortunately, one of my friends was with us.
It would have been heaven without her.
She is too loud.
And distracting.
If anything, I would want to be friends with him.
My hand has pins and needles.
I was lying on my arm a minute ago and it went numb.
I sat up.
Now it is all pins and needles.
I have a lot of work to do and I keep getting distracted by this guy.
Just talking about him, I have butterflies in my stomach and my heart beats a little faster.
<3
Oh! American Idol results tonight!
I should probably get going...
(i just spent 10 minutes staring at the wall thinking about him so I would say I should do my homework)
Keep Floatin'
Wednesday, March 3, 2010
Yesterday felt like it took forever to come to an end.
thing i remember from yesterday in a list:
1. school
2. walk dog
3. workout
4. sit in car until 7:58 watching dog
5. get home in just enough time to watch american idol
6. watch american idol
7. start homework at 10pm
8. during american idol i realized i liked someone
9. it was weird
10. i haven't stopped the feeling of butterflies in my stomach.. no matter how much i want it to stop
11. went to sleep
then today happened
altogether average.
oh and yesterday.. i failed a math test.
but back to today:
i went to the wrong class in the morning... realized it... embarrassed... walked to class
its like a walk of shame in your head
even though nobody else knows
yeah.
i had to leave school early because i had to watch my dog for my parents to go out (she doesn't stay home alone)
and the whole time
i haven't stopped thinking about this guy
his smile
his eyes
his hair
his smile
his laugh
his "hello"
everything that i know about him i like so far
ugh.
lurvestruck.
i have to go and do more homework but hopefully more interesting things will happen
or i will see him more and will be able to talk about it
Keep Floatin'
1. school
2. walk dog
3. workout
4. sit in car until 7:58 watching dog
5. get home in just enough time to watch american idol
6. watch american idol
7. start homework at 10pm
8. during american idol i realized i liked someone
9. it was weird
10. i haven't stopped the feeling of butterflies in my stomach.. no matter how much i want it to stop
11. went to sleep
then today happened
altogether average.
oh and yesterday.. i failed a math test.
but back to today:
i went to the wrong class in the morning... realized it... embarrassed... walked to class
its like a walk of shame in your head
even though nobody else knows
yeah.
i had to leave school early because i had to watch my dog for my parents to go out (she doesn't stay home alone)
and the whole time
i haven't stopped thinking about this guy
his smile
his eyes
his hair
his smile
his laugh
his "hello"
everything that i know about him i like so far
ugh.
lurvestruck.
i have to go and do more homework but hopefully more interesting things will happen
or i will see him more and will be able to talk about it
Keep Floatin'
Tuesday, March 2, 2010
I got home way too late today...
I got home at 7:58pm.
2 minutes until American Idol comes on.
I made it, don't worry.
Oh, homework?
No, I haven't started.
9:30pm?
Oh yeah, I know.
Do I have any?
Yeah, tons.
Time to go work on that.
Pft.
Btw, nothing special happened today.
I had a math quiz and I am 99% sure I won't pass.
No exaggeration here.
I wish.
2 minutes until American Idol comes on.
I made it, don't worry.
Oh, homework?
No, I haven't started.
9:30pm?
Oh yeah, I know.
Do I have any?
Yeah, tons.
Time to go work on that.
Pft.
Btw, nothing special happened today.
I had a math quiz and I am 99% sure I won't pass.
No exaggeration here.
I wish.
Monday, March 1, 2010
I feel yucky.
Today is simply another day of me not feeling well.
I haven't been feeling well the past couple of days, but today just sucks.
I have homework to get started on but decided to post before I got started.
I joined that art class officially, except no credit. As in: i show up and get to use the special supplies not just the crappy stuff.
I also showed up to a class that I don't belong in for a half hour, convinced everyone I was part of the class (the teacher was playing along) and then left 30 minutes into class.
Everyone was wondering why I was allowed to show up once and leave late and still get an A, according to the teacher.
And I explained that he said "If you show up ONCE this term I will give you an A"
So I showed up and I left early and he played along and said "This is going to lower your grade"
And I went on to say "It was nice having class with you guys today, and what's a B? Better than before..."
I am planning on going every monday.
Just for a half an hour.
For the rest of the year.
Sound good?
That's what I thought.
Oh and I take the honor level of the class that I went to so I knew all the answers and was participating. It was really funny.
I have to get to work now.
Keep Floatin'
I haven't been feeling well the past couple of days, but today just sucks.
I have homework to get started on but decided to post before I got started.
I joined that art class officially, except no credit. As in: i show up and get to use the special supplies not just the crappy stuff.
I also showed up to a class that I don't belong in for a half hour, convinced everyone I was part of the class (the teacher was playing along) and then left 30 minutes into class.
Everyone was wondering why I was allowed to show up once and leave late and still get an A, according to the teacher.
And I explained that he said "If you show up ONCE this term I will give you an A"
So I showed up and I left early and he played along and said "This is going to lower your grade"
And I went on to say "It was nice having class with you guys today, and what's a B? Better than before..."
I am planning on going every monday.
Just for a half an hour.
For the rest of the year.
Sound good?
That's what I thought.
Oh and I take the honor level of the class that I went to so I knew all the answers and was participating. It was really funny.
I have to get to work now.
Keep Floatin'
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